battle cries

You question my faith and I question your word.
It's only now just sinking in, only now.
I'm going to watch someone die and succumb to sickness. It could only get better.
I don't know how i should feel. Right now everything is so overwhelming tomorrow I'll leave
for the north for only a day and only an hour to say a last goodbye.
I hate deaths in the family maybe I've seen too many or too few.
I just wanna be home.

Everything will be fine, eventually.

So Its 2 something am.

I can't sleep the only thing I can think of is the rising sun in your glassy eyes. They'll shatter before morning child. Baby blues will never meet the sun. I am an island and you are the sea, I'll promise you one thing just don't take my breath from me. Take the blood from my bones and the color from my skin. I know I/we/you won't be going home.

Minus the my own summer.

You'd catch me when I break wouldn't you? Would you lie to me and would you tell me to believe in something only so we can find comfort? Conclusions, I have asked way too many questions, don't take my vision for love away. Don't break. I can sit here awake knowing that I'll fall asleep in class tomorrow. I should be sleeping, I should but I can't. Eyes won't stop swelling and this is all I'm capable of, writing shitty journal entries and listening to deftones. Oh how can it be, we were so alarmed by the fact that we could change something.
Stress sucks we all know it, they say you should reach for the sky, but right now I'm only on the ground.

shitgodamnignorance

You're living in a world full of imaginative people in nothing more than an actual planet.
Nothing more, you can't just say let there be light and it happens. If you haven't noticed I'm not a very faithful person, Is it really hard, this hard for me to believe in something so simple. It all just seems so surreal. I'll never know, you'll never know.
I just can't believe in death, I'm not sure if I can really believe in anything now.
Don't tell me I need to find the light, fuck the light. I'm living for right now and thats all I'm gonna say. For the moment.